It's in My Blood

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Don't tell me it's not like me
The self-destructive ways, the abhorrence of the ordinary
And the craving for all things that I cannot have
Don't deny my own nature to me,
it had happened before,
it's in my blood
and you kept it from me.
It's in my blood to revolt,
to be in the extremes,
to be volatile,
and to take my own life.
Be it poison
or be it a knife
or be it in the dimples or the long curly mane,
the inheritance from bloodline.
This death wish runs in my blood
You thought I'll never find out.

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